Back again and with a guide to failure.

So, it appears that I’m here yet again. It saddens me to admit that my recent attempt of a ‘comeback’ failed miserably. It was a lousy piece of writing that lacked the Finn-ish substance that we have all come to know and love (nod, smile and act like you know what I’m talking about). Failure is never a nice thing to feel. Whether that be in education, work, relationships, friendships or the worst – and totally the best – giving into that 12″ Margherita pizza when your diet has been going so well; and when your closest heaven-like takeaway does a great ‘BOGOF’ offer, who can possibly say no? Unfortunately for most failures; the faster the drive, the harder the crash. It is important to remember that those horrible feelings in which failure brings – although intense – are only temporary. We must accept our mistakes and work from them.

From my own experience and the accounts of others, I believe that there are 6 different stages of failure:

Confusion

Sadness

Regret

Anger

Acceptance

and finally; motivation for something greater!

I, like so many others, do not believe that they are good enough. We already have failure in our heads and as a result we carry this through everything we do. I don’t see it happening at the time but it’s a more than reasonable answer for why I’m so bloody good at not putting in my 110%. I may mock my old drama teacher for her constant ramblings about ‘SFP’ – SELF FULFILLING PROPHECY, but for the most part, she was right. I mean, don’t get me wrong… if I believe that I’m going to turn into a Russian gymnastic potato, I doubt it will actually happen. But in terms of failure, it’s pretty effective to go into it with a positive outlook as hard as that may be.

And remember…

DO NOT COMPARE YOURSELF TO ANYONE ELSE. THIS IS YOUR JOURNEY. WHO EVEN DEFINES FAILURE? DO NOT ALLOW YOURSELF TO BE DEFINED BY YOUR COURSE, JOB, FRIENDS, PAST OR WHATEVER OTHER CRAPPY THING SOCIETY PROJECTS INTO OUR EXPECTATIONS OF LIFE. HAPPINESS IS THE KEY TO SUCCESS. PROJECT YOUR GREATEST VIBES OUT INTO THE WORLD AND THEY MIGHT JUST BOUNCE BACK!

For this was another pointless post by maraudingminds 🙂

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A little about myself…

Hello, my name is Finn Toolis. I was born on November 12th 1996. At the moment I am studying Media & Television Production in Glasgow. I moved there on the 30th August 2014. I’m bad at describing myself because how can one possibly illustrate who they are when they change their mind on the matter every other Tuesday. However, I suppose ‘About me’ means the basics. So, that being the case; I am a bit of an obsessive when it comes to film and television. My taste stretches around every nook and cranny. Like mostly every other human being, I like music. I couldn’t tell you who/what my favourite artists, films and shows are though. It’s a Sophie’s choice. I don’t play any sports but I secretly wish I was a horse-riding bow and arrow expert archer type.

I’m a bit of a lonely person, not necessarily meaning that I am always alone. I mostly enjoy it this way though. I can’t seem to form those ‘relationships’ that people talk about, and group dynamics sometimes confuse me nowadays. I have a few close friends but I feel that so many of my friendships are going to wither and die sometime soon. I don’t necessarily speak like this in real life either but I find it much easier to put things in writing compared to speech. I like food, particularly junk food but I’m really trying to cut down on that as I have some pretty bad self-confidence. But, we all have our demons 🙂 I sound so morbid and depressed but I’d like to think that I can be pretty fun – if you like people pretending to be cats, creating random characters, surprise attack biting you, fake fainting and just annoying shit like that.

I’m pretty scared about the future because I feel so behind in life from where I should be. I don’t know what job I want or anything like that. I fucked up school pretty bad due to my attendance which left me from possibly getting into uni to doing a low course at college. Luckily, my nan and papa are sort of well off and got me student accommodation in Glasgow or else I’d still be stuck in my hometown of Dumfries which I don’t exactly love. I mean, it’s a nice town but it’s just not me. I’m not entirely sure what type of things I’ll be writing about on my blog yet. I’ll probably be talking about films and shows that I watch, food, society, problems that I face and just a bunch of shit no one is probably interested in haha. Anyway, I’ve been blabbering for ages and I can’t even remember what I’ve wrote so I’ll end it here. For that was a brief summary by myself, Finn.